[c=#2D78B0]fuji[/c] says: Labels: silly but yes., that made my day
hmm. worried. Labels: help?
i am scared! Labels: or the ones i laugh with., they are no longer the ones i cry to
BOOHOO. Labels: I SERIOUSLY NEED TO GET STARTED. LIKE RIGHT NOW.
i. am. bored. lalalalala. Labels: how?
gah!amanda jia you!
Friendster Horoscope for April 23, 2008 Labels: how bloody true.
gahh. amanda is feeling brain fried!! juz studying ONE topic of bio. ANIMAL NUTRITION.
hanging on a string, not knowing whr to go Labels: crying wun even ease the feelings within me anymore.
hmm. i seem to be leading a life that i dun even know too. Labels: i wanna give it all up.
gahh.
the amanda i know can finish her work in no time
[c=#2D78B0]fuji[/c] says:
the amanda i know is strong in charecter
[c=#2D78B0]fuji[/c] says:
the amanda i know is smart
[c=#2D78B0]fuji[/c] says:
the amanda i know is good in everything she do
[c=#2D78B0]fuji[/c] says:
the amanda i know is cute and pretty
WAHAHAHA!
I LIKE THE LAST SENTENCE BEST! ><
♥
worries for my screwed english and chinese.
english proposal was ;(
chinese was needless to say.
i even have trouble getting 40/70. ><
wadeva happened i dunno.
this year seems different.
everyones juz so competitive.
its so tough to keep up.
so hard to breathe.
gahh.
my results were not as good as last yrs.
gahhh. help.
the motivation last yr worn off.
i never had since this yr.
my energy worn off.
much too fast
it seems like no matter how hard i tried.
it juz does not seem to bear fruit.
so much that i have given up trying.
JIA YOU FOR MYES BAH!
COMPO WAS TOTALLY A FAILURE WHILE ORAL WAS NEITHER WELL DONE.
JIU KAO PAPER 2 LE.
GAHHH! :(
♥ Tuesday, April 29, 2008
scared of paper one tomorrow.
scared of the proposal.
scared of the narrative.
scared of the ji xu wen being too difficult to write about.
scared of the si han being too hard to understand.
afraid of the MYES.
afraid of my pathetic amath and log.
afraid of my physics of not understanding a single shit.
afraid of my crapshit results.
♥ Sunday, April 27, 2008
lemme see wad i did for my week end.
a pathetic piece of physics worksheet, e bio worksheet leaving some blanks,
and half a amath paper.
spent all my days sleeping? playing?
WHILE THE OTHERS ARE MUGGING AWAY.
GOSHHH
wah cannot stand it man
go read yannis and amanda aw blog.
made me soooo guilty.
somemore e amath ques i did it with HELP with EVERY question.
CAN U BELIEVE IT?
how am i ever gonna survive mid yrs?
U KNOW WHEN TING EN ASKED ME ABOUT EMATH
I DUN EVEN REMEMBER IT?
lol. stm la. so sad.
i am on my way to self destruction.
physics test i tink can fail le.
emath also not well done
chem too
bio was shit compared to the others. ><
HELPPPPP.
i lost my motivationnn
♥ Thursday, April 24, 2008
i feel so not accomplished. i didnt do anything today!
so guilty! ><><
♥ Wednesday, April 23, 2008
life is IMPROVING.
ahahha. at least i think it is.
but my results are slipping. awwww
JIA YOU JIA YOU!
physics and emaths is a goner.
but so sad who ask me dun wan study.
oh ya. i stilll got alot of worksheet dunno how to do.
alamak. must ask liao. so sick of this
AIM: TO FINISH ALL THE WORKSHEETS BY THE END OF THIS WEEK. ;D
♥ Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Aries (Mar 21 - Apr 19)
The Bottom Line
Today, wide open spaces will help to open up your mind and freshen up your attitude.
In Detail
Today will be a lovely, breezy day -- so why not get outdoors and enjoy some of the fresh air (weather permitting, of course)? Wide open spaces will help to open up your mind and freshen up your attitude about an issue that has been frustrating you lately. All that oxygen will give you new ideas and it might even help you think up a few new adventures to embark upon. Go for a long walk, take a hike, or just park at the far end of the parking lot. Breath it all in.
♥ Monday, April 21, 2008
i cannot imagine mid years man. gahhhh
hmm. todays mood was better?
i dunno la.
go shopping see all those cute little teeny weeny stuff juz makes me feel all happy again
feel so foolish. ><
thought alot about what i wanna do
and i decided.
since you promised.
keep to your promise. ;D
all i wan for this week. to have TIME to study for my emaths and chem test.
to watch a movie
to eat DELIFRANCE.
lol. definately NOT forgetting
having a genunine smile on my face for the whole week. ;D
i wanna study tomorrow. anyone?
i doubt anyone even reads this. i type to let it all out. ;D
maybe it should be saved as drafts?
;D HAPPY AMANDA ITS GONNA BE! <3333333
♥ Sunday, April 20, 2008
no direction
left to sway around.
yes i wanna know but i am afraid of what i may hear
i am afraid to even ask.
i dun wanna know.
i dun wanna get hurt again and again.
but leaving it liddat would only make me even more sad
what should i do.
you tell me.
yes he says i would feel good and ease if the result is good
if its bad i would feel bad at the start
but after i come to terms with it, i would move on.
but can i move on without knowing the truth?
all i wanna do is to protect myself le.
i dun wan words or actions to cause me to have more stabs in the back
there is already alot as it is now.
i doubt there is even any more space le.
♥
things come and past. people too.
one week is all it took bah. i dunno wad to do.
crap is wad i am feeling.
things came crashing down right smack at the bloody same time.
tell me wad the hell i should do.
i dun even want to be caught in the middle in the first place.
it was never my business!
i juz cannot get it how she can juz get away with every bloody bitch stuff she does.
everything seems to be going against me. why?
i dunno la.
shes juz so hypocritical, so fake, yet i dunno why people know yet do no dare to do anything.
tell me la. wo zhen de bu zhi dao gai zhe me ban le.
i am at my wits end.
he shouldnt even have started it.
maybe den she can juz continue bitching about me to him without me knowing.
what i dunno cant hurt me right.
now i see her also dun wanna see her man.
now everyone is like leaving me hanging on a string.
i know HALF but not the other HALF.
i am lazy to even go figure it out. i rather i dunno la.
liddat also better bah.
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
i wanna go to the beach, go sleep there. look at the stars and fall asleep.
wake up see the sunrise and SCREAM.
although things wun help, but at least i would be able to forget them for juz ONE night.
please.
she will juz have more and more to bitch about me.
i really sick and tired le.
dunno cry how many times
cry until eyes also swollen le.
but like anyone would give a damn
everyones like hiding stuff from each other
everyones acting all fake and hypocritical.
theres like so little people i can really turn to and cry to.
♥ Thursday, April 17, 2008
i dunno wad to do.
wad to feel.
i dun wanna do it.
but wad can i do.
BAHHH.
tomorrows e day. lol.
i tink the tekanning is gonna be....
stay optimistic!
oh ya! SQUAD THREE JIA YOU! ;D
& i realised i seriously did change alot since the past.
for the better or worse i dunno. ><