hey. long time since i came here bah. not that nothing happened. or rather too many things happened that i dunno whr to start from. hmm. came here for a motive. so here goes.
i seriously dunno. as in all this while, WE ALL KNOW THAT THE PROBLEM STILL EXISTS? it hasnt even changed a single bit. its only that we tao bi. but now. all it take is a little spark. for everything to start again. hello. why was she with me in e first place. coz u all didnt want her. u all said things. and i did hear. when this happened. u said not to believe her. but i dunno. coz all this while i dunno who is in e right who is in e wrong. u all say shes lying. but whynot u turn to the person beside u and say shes lying? why do u trust her so much? i know u will ask me den why do i trust her so much. i dont. i still remember what u said. and i still did not listen to everything she said. but sometimes i can feel exactly e same as her? how do u expect me not to believe her. everytime no matter whether its in front of us or behind us its only wispering wispering wispering. if u are not happy. for goodnees just show it. it wun help if u just keep everything to yrself and just tell her. tell her get her angry ISNT IT THE SAME AS SHE TELL ME AND GET ME ANGRY. u can see her but u cannot see yrself. i am sad. seriously sad. coz all this while, i have been telling myself KAN KAI. ZHENG YI ZHI YAN BI YI ZHI YAN. i know its hard. practically impossible but i try to be happy as much as possible. thats why. even if u wanna bitch about me or whoever, please ensure that the person will not know. or worse will not see. liddat i tink i will be much better. i seriously wan u all to read this. i dunno if it will help. but its like things that have been under me very long le.
ANOTHER THING also, i dunno wads going on with me la. as in everything i see, i will feel very sad. like why did i choose to do that previously? i guess i have only myself to blame. ;D i tink he knows about it. but he also wanna act lik he dunno. so i play along alrights. anyway i doubt he will care.
♥ Monday, June 02, 2008
penned down at 7:07 AM
DOTS. my schedule is like packed to the max. i have to do homework. have to pack my bag for student camp. crappppp.
oh yes. student camp STRICTLY NO FBTS. ><>< aahh. i dunno laaaaa. so sian le la! i hate packing. i dunno la. bring wad bag. dao di clothes enough for 5day 4night is WAD?
dots. dots. dots. qi si wo le. i dun wanna gooooooo. rarhhhhhh.
ON ANOTHER THOUGHT lol. been doing alot of watching and thinking. ;D
