hey. Labels: this is actually one of the few times i managed to say what i feel out. so fast and smooth.
yep. today went for POC.
lol i was supposed to wake up at around 9.15
ended up waking only at going 10.
chiong like some mad pig.
anyway yea.
den after that took neoprints.
den my dad realised i was at BUGIS.
and chased me home like siao.
alot of us took 12 home.
yay my suggestion. ;DD
and it took like 1 hour.
nice sleep man.
all of us ESPECIALLY SHIYUAN.
slept and slept and slept.
IN ALL SORTS OF FUNNY POSITIONS. ;D
came home went out came back. bathe and here blogging. ;D
i seriously felt downright lousy.
before coming i knew i would face such things.
making me feel so awkward.
but coz of . i had no choice.
yes. i understand myself wad i felt was not regret.
from the day i made that decision i told myself to NOT regret.
but i cannot stand it when they recognise me.
and gimme that o.o look.
although yea some smiled at me nicely( ;D )
but i really didnt feel in place at all.
all i wanted to was to get out of the U and step out of that place.
it really didnt feel nice.
especially wad u said make it hurt more okay.
i knew it was a passing remark. but sorry it pierced.
maybe it was the way u phrased it.
certainly didnt feel nice.
from the start all the way.
suddenly i felt like i didnt belong here?
i dunno. and smiling just doesnt actually mean i am happy.
i felt like crying. not coz i regretted not going.
but maybe coz i allowed myself to come and get hurt.
when i obviously knew that this would happen.
sometimes...
anyway its quite true that its over now, and i need not go through this anymore. ;)
side note:
while bathing just now i was thinking.
actually one sentence to describe myself is that
i can feel very insecure and i am just too proud to admit it.
